So I turned 17 like 5 days ago...

Im happy Im getting older (only because I will be able to obtain more freedom) and Im applying for a job at Walgreens -w- WHOO!

Anyway, I had soooooo much fun at AnimeNEXT 2011!! It was so EPIC! A few times i was called the best Ciel Phantomhive there!

It was so cool with how many Sebastians bowed down to me....
oh the POWER...





Anyway, I have the best time ever with my lovely Alois and my butler Sebastian~! I also made a ton of new friends and luckily i found a few on fb and have another's number

I loved it though. Sadly we couldn't have the actual wedding but we figured wed prepare it for next year now that we have new friends who want to join! We originally were supposed to have about 5-6 people but things happened. Fuuny thing was that i recently found out that one of the girls (who were supposed to come)called me a bitch over DA thinking I wouldn't find out How mature~

Now here's the thing. Im not willing to sink to that level even if I wasn't the one who was in the wrong but you should have seen her face when she saw me. Pure shock, but not surprised. I felt nothing though. In all honesty, it was like looking at a mistake.
I'm a person who knows how to forgive and forget but this time, i had enough of forgiving this person for this wasn't the first time they have made a "mistake". I didn't want to continue being hurt by them.

I should probably explain what happened without going into detail before i continue.

Basically, it had to due with the Kuroshitsuji Wedding at AnimeNEXT. Everything was fine up until a month before. A younger mutual friend of ours who was actually going to the convention, accidentally planned her Sweet 16 on that same Saturday. By the time i realized it, it was much too late. I told the person and she didn't know either. Now I am in no way blaming my younger friend because it was indeed a mistake.  Yet, as soon as I tell the person, she immediately says "Well I can go on Sunday." No consideration. Even after I asked her if she was seriously doing that. It showed how much of a friend she was.

It hurt. In all honesty, it seriously did.

I was in shock.

Now hear me out. Ive been planning this wedding idea for an ENTIRE YEAR. She was part of it. Not only did it bug me that she gave up on me and the wedding so QUICKLY WITHOUT THINKING IT OVER. Trust me. I gave her a chance but her decision was final. She says, "its important to her and shes been so excited for it!" Well what about me? Ive planned this for an entire year. Ive spent about $200-300 on it alone. Not only that, it was supposed to be a celebration of my birthday despite the amount of time between the two. Not only that, but Ive done SO MUCH to help her with her cosplays!! I helped her untangle and style an ENTIRE wig. I gave her advice on what she should do. I helped make a duct tape body cast as a mannequin. I was even helping her make a costume and prop.

Now i thought maybe i was too harsh (in which i wasn't at all) because i never called her a bitch or approached her rudely, but I asked many people without using names just to see what they'd say. Some who knew her were not surprised she did that. They ALL said I am much better off. I agreed before they even said that.

I deleted her number and everything after about a week.

Then i posted on fb on Alois's (DARA's) wall that i might cancel the entire thing cuz I wasnt up to it. We comemmented back and forth on each other's wall about it til she talked me back into continuing saying that even she was pissed (and if you know my DARA, anger is not easy for her to obtain), she is gonna walk with pride and smile. I love her <3 But none the less, she was right. I shook the thought from my head til later that day, that person messaged me saying how stupid it was for me to be mad at her. Oh really? Why dont you spend hundreds of dollars and shit (excuse me) on something you care about then you can come tell me its stupid. After that, SHE blocked me on fb. In all honesty, that made me proud cuz inside, I knew she would be ashamed every time she saw my face on a mutual friends profile because I know I would if I did that to her. Ah, fb drama.

Well back to when I saw her at the con.

Like i said, I felt nothing. I literally held a cold face and turned my back completely and walked away from her. In all honesty....

It felt so GOOD

I literally was smiling as I walked away! Not because i hope she felt bad, no way D: But for the fact I actually moved on! I know what I did was right. My Sebby was happy for me as well!

Our younger friend came with her and actually came up to me and said i looked amazing!

Now, I come back to DA and see a friend (who knows about the whole situation) screencaped the girl's her journal comment to someone on her joournal. She called me a bitch. Now she didnt say it directly but I knew she meant me.

Now that was completely wrong.
First, if you dont have the to say it to my face, dont hide behind a computer screen love

Im not an idiot.

Anyway, after this journal, im gonna block her on here and call it a very successful night. <3
For those who actually read through this, please understand I am a very forgiving person. Yet after knowing them 3 years and continuously being hurt by them severely, dont you think enough is enough?

After that, Ive been better than ever!

Now, Im working on new cosplays and moving on. Permanently. <3 Im so happy with my life now that I dont need to go back and hurt myself anymore. Im a brand new person with big goals in life and new cosplays in mind!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING   <3

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